I don't think that anybody who knows me knows this blog exists. They all stopped blogging a long time ago, and also following blogs. I am shocked at how many people I know seem to have gone batfuckingcrackers insane in the last 6 years. Really? Because that was never your politics before you meet this last woman. The word is now "Pussywhipped".  Think and speak for yourself. I have changed. A lot. I no longer suffer fools and idiots for even a moment. Fuck everything.

Sick

Being diagnosed Diabetic last year certainly hasn't made life easier. I struggle to control it with diet and one pill. I am pretty certain when I got helath insurance again they'll be tossing me onto insulin. One of the things I most dreaded in life. When do I get a break?

Nobody ever reads this anyway. I am so bored being at home all day that I can't stand it. Too much still lives in boxes from the move. I get what I can put away each day- but it seems endless. So much to give to donations just to make space. I feel guilty giving away stuff my parents worked to buy. Then again, they seem to have been giving away tons of money to all kinds of places each year. I am really fucking sick and tired of telling someone on the phone my parents are dead...only to have them hard sell me on giving me more money. Screw them all at this point. Nobody has been giving me money...EVER. Nobody has given me food or shelter, and there were times when things got really bad for me. It's time everybody else had to make their own way like I have. I have found 80% of the materials I need to get a decent resume' and start looking for work. What a pain, 2500 miles from all my contacts and resources for actually finding work in a new field. Have to do it, or all the grief of schooling wasn't worth it.

Don't know what this fancy box on the "Compose" Screen is for. Why oh why do computer programers have to constantly change things? If it works, stop fixing it. God only knows how I can get my life in gear agan, spending ever so much time trying to stay current with things like FB, Blogger and even my damned e-mail.

Progress

The Jeep I struggled to fix and never sell has made it to Florida, along with a couple of other cars and 50% of what we own. There are issues to be sure down there, but at least there is also hope. Will have to plan things out for visits back to California for the important things. Time to start boxing up the rest of the stuff we own and get ready to make the jump to living in Florida. Leave the mess called California behind. Weird. This never got published a year ago...

Wow, been gone from Blogging a long time. So much has changed in life in the last year. Blogger, once again, has changed EVERYTHING...making it that much harder to use. No longer a Californian. Very tired and depressed. Trying to get unpacked from the transcountry move still. Need something new. Hoped to catch up with many old friends, and haven't spoken to but two or three of them. I need somebdy to talk to...