Knock Knock. Nobody's here.

 Yep. Another year, stage four cancer, starvation and lost 115 pounds, and still the once wonderful Blogger is ruined. Software writers are fucking morons.

Joe McCarthy was right.....

 There are commies behind every bush, tree and plant in the USA. So funny how these idiots take out hundreds of thousands of dollars worth of student loans for education that enable them to work for huge corperations and make more money than they are worth, yet they cry about how evil capitalism is. THEY are the very products of it!

The country is already lost.In 20 years everybody will look at today and say, "Oh....THAT'S when we should have fought back...". 

MIA and What?

 So many things have been destroyed by the internet. many of those things had benefits far past what is now available as a result of their demise. Among them:

The entire recording industry. Napster destroyed the method of finding, growing and selling new music. All because rich college students thought "Music should be free!". The software the founder of Napster writes and sells now SHOULD BE FREE.

Shortwave Radio- 99% of the English broadcast worldwide is gone. With it, the spectrum of programs and news broadcasts that reached beyond an amount limited to local coverage. Now, internet shits out endless repeats of old news. Tred of seeing stories about incidents 80 years ago when I want to know why my county has been on fire for the last three days.

Periodicals/ magazines- they were forced to research and come up with never ending information to survive. 90% of the magazines I LOVED are all long gone. The knowledge and interaction with other readers has vanished, as the tribal knowledge for interests has dried up and gone away if t conflicts with some moderator on line.

News- No longer able to hear stories worldwide, and limited to whatever the pro media decides to sell and resell us. Why no stories of the White Farmers of South Africa being slaughtered in their homes? And god knows what else.

Can't think of anything else and need to water plants.

Fuck it.

I Piss Everybody Off

 Before it became this fancy world of "Social Media", people could laugh, argue and poke fun at each other on line. Now everybody has "Monitized", become an "Influencer" and turned into the biggest generation of thing skinned pussies in history.

I couldn't give a rat's ass what somebody else's "Gender" is. Or who they hump, or what they hump. Don't care which gods they follow or don't, what car they drive or anything else. Well, except computers. Those Apple/ Mac pansies blow ass.

Probably getting the Ban on at least two big social media sites as I type for saying, "No you don't." to more fragile little twats. I piss everybody off. 

Oh, The Title Goes Up Here Now...

    Never-ending change on Blogger. It used to be so much fun to type in a subject or name on th Blogger search bar and have it take you though a never ending stream of blogs along those subjects. Now, even if you know the name of the blog, you can't find it. Some contacts I never met, but had enough interaction with to wonder how they are doing these days.

There was a fellow badly out of shape that took up cycling and got healthy again. Reading his posts kept me going on days of harsh pain. Then he got married. To some woman who already had a mess of kids, and pretty quickly vanished from his Blog. I hope he's OK, but last post I saw he had stopped cycling and gained around 40 pounds as a result.

There was a young woman in Iraq posting about her day to day life. Somebody published her blog as a book and we never heard about her again. I wonder if she got a dime for all her painful and heartfelt writing? Whatever happened to Riverbend?

Her friends had gone viral, one of which came to the US and kept his blog, the pivot person between them disappeared, and was probably killed. The remaning one since has vanished too. Salman Px, still missing?

There was a young woman in Japan of some sort of mixed heritage. She really didn't fit in, but seemed intelligent and nice enough. Her mother was going mad and I think moved in with her. It ruined her life, poor thing. She met somebody on Blogger, had a long distance realtionship and finally met them. Soon after she got ghosted painfully. The drinking had started up again. One prays that Drunken Wench rambler is OK out there somewhere.

Another fellow shaved his balls. He was stuck in life and started school to fly helicopters for a living. Part way through he met a girl, who was kinky. School seemed to have taken a back seat and he fell behind. Just when both of them got on track as a couple, the school with all his records went under and vanished. His submissive kitty was trying to help, but his slice of life blog posts went away.

Blogger allowed no censorship, and became a place to communicate, althought they did their best to prevent exchange of e-mail contact that cut them out of the loop. 

Oh well, I hope all of y'all are OK out there......

Yet Again

 So I drop by Blogger to check on something on it and find I can no long go to a mode where I see the blog as the rest of the world does. I can pick one post for a "Preview", but not scroll through the whole thing. Where do the morons changing things come from? I hope they drown under their college loan debt.

So Long Ago

 Blogger mattered. Before MySpace and FB you could make connections, exchange ideas, stay in touch and expand your world. Then Google came along and had to "Monetize" everything. It's ruined the internet as a result. Social media and everything else is so tightly controlled by big money that it's becoming increasingly useless. How bad is it when you have an actual web address and your browser says it doesn't exist?

What If?

 What if after all these car wrecks, bad jobs, chronic health problems and general bullshit....I was able to get back on track to do what I always said I wanted to do in life?

Applying lessons learned and lost to the never-ending quest to write. Treating novels just like all the technical manuals I spewed out without an issue. Wonder why I had this roadblock for so long? I think it's called "Life".

Testing, 1,2, 3....

American Music

Rock music in the USA is dead as hell. The only things out there are 5th generation "Punk" bands. How does that even make sense? Punk was about loud, fast, new and soon to be outdated. A bunch of 50- somethings touring and singing about high school problems is so  very boring.

The airwaves have been taken back over by Formula Acts. So-called R & B and all the rest. Faces that come and go at the drop of a hat. Also, boring as all hell.

Then there's Taylor Swift. The white girl victim from hell. Always complaining about being female, yet richer than most families will ever be. Yep- she's sure been limited in her life. Dating her is for stupid people. Look at her wrong and you're the subject of yet another "Pity Me" song. She has more issues than National Geographic. Go away Taylor. Just go away.

Asia seems to have a host of strong rock bands in every genre. Punk and Grunge aren't even a thing there. Ladybaby is better than 95% of what comes out of US bands these days.

Funny how people you've known for decades vanish once they get married, isn't it? Then 20 years later when the kids are gone and the marriage is over they pop back up like nothing happened. Sorry, you ignored me, I moved on. Bye.

Too injured to work. Not recovering. Turned off phone to play guitar.

World, shut your mouth.

All Dead

Wow.

I had so much hope when I started this blog. It replaced another one because an idiot found it and thought posts on it were about them...and they weren't. I tried getting to my goals, but injury, pain and every god damn thing else got in the way. It's not the dream that dies last, it's the person who lost them all.

For five years I've been saying "I'm depressed." whenever I am asked what is wrong. 3 years ago when I got rear-ended at a stop light, the injuries really did a number on me. It took my fitness workouts away from me and I got fatter. So I tell doctors I am depressed about it. With this last wreck, EVERY one of the half a dozen doctors I am seeing has a 6 or longer page forms to fill out. On all of them I have marked "Yes" to the question asking if I am depressed. Nobody has said a thing. I don't need more pills, I need resolution to my never-ending pain and restoration of my wounded limbs. That doesn't seem likely. Who knows, I'll probably get hit by a busload of illegals brought in by the democrats for some promo event. Then when they search for all my on-line stuff they'll find this saying, "I don't feel good, I am depressed. Why won't anybody help me?" Note to news staff...highlight that last sentence.

If It Wasn't For Bad Luck.....

Back in December a moron blew through a stop sign and then slammed on brakes in front of me. I hit him broadside doing 45 mph and got hurt badly. The recovery is going poorly, as I now have four herniated discs in my neck and back. The pain is more than when I broke my neck in 1988. I have lost my beloved Miata that carried me through so many of the best things I had in life, and I feel lost. Had job interviews in the works and lost all that. A year without pay still owed to me.

I contacted every law enforcement agency from The State Department down to local Sheriffs and NOBODY would investigate the foreign criminal we all worked for. His anti-American rants an what I found n line about him convinced me he is involved in money laundering for somebody and probably terrorists. But still nothing. Lawyers won't take the case to sue him, LE will do nothing. I can see no reason I should be expected to follow any laws for myself. This country is dead and gone.


Facebook has become almost unusable, and a few friends have gone to Mewe in hopes of avoiding all the "Algorithms" of the other platforms.

I may not be alive long enough to post in a year or so like I have been doing.

Still No Break

Found a job a year and a half ago. Traveling and working myself into sickness only to have most of my work overturned and thrown out. Then yeah, I get blamed for a lack of results on stuff I disagreed with anyway. The bastard running the company hasn't paid anyone since fucking May. Last check was two weeks late to top it off. 90% of company has quit, and I am job searching again. The idiot took a week off to deal with a dying cat, lost all track of the process to pay us and cries that "nobody would understand..." about his cat. We get it. It's a fucking pet. It died. Get on with life. Yes I am angry and have lost faith in the company.

Google Destroyed Blogger

Back before FB, Blogger was a thriving and interesting place to be. You could connect with people world-wide and it was a blast. Now....the majority of features that made that possible are all gone as Google tries to turn everything into Twitter. They just don't understand that not everybody is 14 years old, sitting in class and trying to use their phones to pass notes to each other. So sad to see the smoking remains of a once great idea...

2017 So Far

Just wondered if this blog was still up. Way back when I met and communicated with folks world wide as a result of it. Blogs somehow forced a better set of writing than FB does. Absolutely nobody remembers Blogs- since they got taken over by cats and baby pictures. Plus, you can no longer surf the most recently published or any of the other feeds for them. Boring.

Still Angry, What Do You Expect?

The legal system is still a scam. Fuck everybody involved in it. Leaches.

Had I known how bad I would feel consonantly when I got diagnosed as Diabetic, I would have probably shot myself. None of my dreams in life have come true. It would be best if I just fucking died and my wife could get the insurance money. I looked at my first post of this blog and just shook my head at how much hope, energy and excitement I had back then. I feel like doing something stupid crazy like I have no idea. Working towards yet another type of job and having craploads of trouble since the last foreigner rear ended me in May. WTF- do I keep getting in wrecks with fucking forefingers? Whiplash and TBI just screw you when you need to study. Probably not getting other stuff done I forgot about either. I swear to god somebody that fucks with me needs to die. Maybe I should go to mexico in the F-250 and drive like they do here.

It just figures

The morons on the jury let the gunman off on all charges...including the ones he openly admitted to doing to the detective on the case. The legal system is a fucking joke. If you have to depend on a "Jury of your peers", you are fucked. America is too full of stupid people to ever work right again. How do I sell everything and leave?

To cap all, my oldest dog has now died.

Screw everybody else's problems. I've had enough.

150

Just waiting on the criminal trial. Hope my testimony puts the criminal behind bars for life. He showed me no mercy, the favor will be returned. I wield the legal system as my weapon...which means I have a lot slimmer chance of doing actual damage. Once this mess is over maybe I can get on with life.

Well.....?

Wonder what I can get into that still excites me and makes me actually want to be alive? Its been a long time since I felt that way.

Taking It As It Comes. I Guess.

FB has ruined a lot of things and helped a few things. I used to follow a good number of bloggers and seeing their daily posts clued me into many things. Some went all pro and screwed up what was good about their blogs by selling on it. Many just stopped posting. The weird ones are the ones that used to write endlessly about wild parties and behavior...and now have (like everybody else it seems) reduced their blog to pictures of their blubbering, overweight spoiled children. So very few seem to have active or intelligent offspring. Maybe all that self-abuse pays off in the next generation.